Time

Too many things eating at my time. When I see something, I think about how much time that item represents. A video game can take 100 hours to complete, so it represents 100 hours of my life (assuming I finish it, which I wouldn't). The actual dollar amount I would pay for any item is nothing compared to the time I would spend with it. Assume some number of hours of live left, and from there one can work out the minimum percentage of ones life that item or event represents. If you are going to be hit by a car and die tomorrow, it represents a bigger part of your life.

So how does one decide? To many things calling out to me. "Spend time with me!" says the TV set. "Watch all of the shows. Sure, they might suck, but at least you will have something to talk about with other humans." "Eat me", says the Super Premium Ice Cream in my freezer. "Munch me.", says the snack food. "Come to me and spend the day.", says KFC. "Lick me from head to toe, stopping at some key locations to make sure you get the job done", says... well, I'll leave that one out for now. Then there is Internet Porn, "Look at all that I have to offer! Just 3 hours a day of your life is all I ask, and your every fantasy can be filled. Sex with plants, I've got thousands of movies and pictures for you." That Internet Porn, it always seems to know my weakness.

So, what is the point? Well, the price you pay for something is nothing compared to the time. You can make more money, but you can not make more time. So, stop watching bad TV shows, stop going to movies, don't play games, stop looking at porn (hold your horses until I finish before you think about lynching me for proposing this radical idea), etc - then you will have saved all of your wonderful, luscious time to do quality things, things that you really want to do... What else is there to do? If you give up everything, you have all of the time in the world, but the only thing left to do is sit around waiting to spend that time on something Really Big!

The Edward

PS Waste your time how you feel, since even reading a classic book is still just wasting time. (or "using time" as an bloody optimist might say, those sad little people with nothing better to do that tell you that the glass is half full - well, I can tell them what to do with that other half of the glass! "Always look on the bring side.", what, so I can be blinded by their pithy sayings? "You can catch more flies with honey than vinegar", yeah, and they all drown slowly in the thick syrup, painfully suffocating, you sick "happy" bastards.) All things are equal in death. So, do anything you want, while you can. Even downloading plant porn.

Nothing...

Too many changes in the "real" world affecting my arcane view of your world. I'll get back in the saddle again, ASAP!

Meanwhile: Battlestar Galatica! The latest ad claims the first week in October for the latest season to begin. I thought I remember it being slated for the last week in October. Has something changed?

A new company. I believe it is time for me to go back to my own company. It will be different this time. I already have the name: ArcaneLab. But, what would you expect from a company with that kind of name? Deep, interesting researchy kinds of things, I hope! I'm sure the world will shudder at the first product announcement. The problem: how can one top that kind of reaction at successive product announcements?

"This product is so devastatingly amazing that entire worlds will be destroyed each time you use it."

"Time and space will lose all meaning once you try ArcaneLab's latest product."

"What's that sound? Is that the sound of the impending apocalypse? No! It is the collective sigh of the Universe, overwhelmed with the joy of the knowledge of this product and what it can do to make life have meaning again."

"Every creature that has ever lived or will live will be at your local store trying to be the first of own the latest from ArcaneLab."

"Billions of Branes have collided, pulled together by the intensity of ideas in the newest ArcaneLab product."

"Nothing."

Me

The Beautiful Explanation

I'm tired of reading Scientific American, and pretty much any other science journal. Why? Besides the seemingly endless array of logic errors? Well, they seem to espouse something I heard about a while ago that still bugs me: If there are two or more theories, the one that is probably correct is the most beautiful one. It gets mentioned in almost every String Theory article and book - String Theory is to Beautiful to be wrong.

Ever hear of Kepler? He had a beautiful model of our solar system. He reasoned that the known planets orbit the sun base on the five perfect Platonic solids: cube, tetrahedron, octahedron, icosahedron and dodecahedron. Beautiful theory - he ever created some very nice models. The main problem with it was that it was wrong. He eventually figured it out and we now have a better theory of planetary orbits.

There are other examples, but all illustrate the same point: Why do we believe that the Universe is simple and/or beautiful? The presumption is that we are smart enough to create an internal model of the Universe, but where is the proof? We believe that the rules of the Universe will seem beautiful to us, why? We are such a very small part of the whole, with so much of it beyond our grasp... Maybe it is because of this that we try to simplify the Universe first, we say it is banana shaped, which gives us a grasp on it. If we evolve enough, maybe we can move up to the next shape, eventually reaching something that we currently wouldn't believe to be beautiful, but those future "humans" would. Or would they?

The Edward

Why I'm not a Vegetarian

Plants. They are our friends. They are here for us. We make clothing and bedding and napkins out of them. Could you imagine a leather napkin? Or leather panties? I know that I can not! They supply us with so much goodness, it just makes me feel all gooshy inside. With such a great ally, how can we go wrong?!

Lies! Plants our not our friends! They think they are our masters! They once ruled the earth. They were everywhere. They took in all of that lovely C02 and output a poisonous, corrosive, explosive gas, something that no sane creature could live off of - pure oxygen, O2. The Devil's Gas. Early on, all was fine when there weren't that many plants. But once they grew in population and dominated the world, their buildup of toxic gases was too great for them. They needed a solution. They needed a set of creatures that could not only survive in this newly forming toxic wasteland of O2, but maybe even output the much needed CO2 that all higher beings, plants, needed. The plants put their best scientist on the problem, and a solution was reached...

Animals appeared to fill that void! The plants were happy again! But some upstart species came along, thinking it was the dominate species, even though any logical creature could tell that the plants control the hu-mans, gave them everything that they needed in order to keep them sucking in all of that waste and outputting delicious CO2. The hu-mans started trying to starve the plants, cut back on CO2, so the plants are fighting back. They are trying to reassert their dominance!

What can we do keep control? What can we do to prevent plants from continuing to rule "us"? We attack on two fronts: 1) we kill their kind and turn them into paper that we wipe ourselves with (just to rub it in their "faces") and other products that we do not need (ie kill them for no reason, just to make them feel helpless), 2) we starve them by cutting back on their CO2 producing meat-machines: animals.

The more goods we consume, the more we can control their numbers. The more burgers we eat, the more we can control their CO2 supply. Do not be fooled, this is war - a war I want "us" to win! So, let's all do our part! I'll be there for you, there to lift that burger if you fall.

The Edward

This just in, proof of what I said: pictures of plants mating with human women. I'd hate to see the offspring of these unholy unions! Is there nothing plants will not do to regain their Power?

IBM

I heard this term recently: IBM. It was on a show about games, so I wasn't sure at first, but it turned out to be in the context of booth babes' skirt length. They said, Inch Below Muff. I never heard that term before, but I sure did get a chuckle out of it.

It got me to thinking... There is something exciting about a women with no panties on. No panties on under pants, shorts, etc, is exciting, but with a dress or a skirt, it becomes too exciting for words. I'm not sure why. Even though I probably would never see anything being exposed, just the thought that there is pussy right there exposed to the air, so close yet so far ...

I have had one or two women tell me in the past that they were not wearing panties, or that hadn't with certain types of clothing. I never verified that it was true, but it still sends shivers of joy down my spine to this day. It is a very appealing thought, and after years of analysis, I haven't determined why. Why?

Obviously, since I never have verified, any excitement that I felt was all in my mind. I never tried just imagining that a woman I was near was panty-less, but once the words are spoken everything changes. I guess I do not give myself permission to think of people in certain ways (sexual), but if someone is going to rub it in my face (I hope), then I am free to fantasize about that which was stated. (and I will - go ahead and try me)

Nothing really deep or insightful in this post (not that there is in any other post, just that I at least attempt to be in most other ones, or at least funny) - I just thought I would share a little bit more about myself. So, now you know I like cream (or half & half) on my cereal and that I like the idea of panty-less women in short skirts. I'd suggest trying them both!

The Edward

PS At least one person did try the half and half over cereal and told me it was an interesting experience. Now I need at least one woman to be panty-less and tell me - I'm sure the results will be just as interesting!

Funny Topics

Though I had more to say on the past thread of topics, I will save them for The Future. I have had people come up to me and say "Edward", which is good because if they had said "Ed" I would have smacked them. "Edward", they say, "What's with all of the serious topics recently? Make with the funny. Talk about pussy again." Which is interesting, because when I was pussy-talking before, a different group of people thought that I was too focused on the pussy. And there is yet a third group that thinks I switch around too much, I should have a focused blog, maybe doing movie reviews. So, maybe I should try to combine them and appease everyone! (or upset everyone!) A focus, funny, yet serious, blog entry about movie pussy.

I remember way back when, R-Rated meant that there would be nudity, and we liked it. We would line up around the block for the chance to possibly see a breast, or heaven forbid, a pussy shot. Now a days, with this Internet porn thing, there really isn't a reason to see movies in the theatres. And most actresses seem to think that their bodies are so much better than everyone else's that they no longer do nude scenes. Although the net outcome is that it forces people to download pictures of these actresses faces on porn star's bodies and pretend that they pictures are not fakes, and not see the crappy movies. And since almost all movie scripts are utter crap, without the titillation of possibly seeing something "naughty" on screen, the mind-numbingness of movies really shines through.

My recommendation to this problem: See X-Rated movies! There are a few companies out there that try to make "women friendly" movies, which means that they almost have a plot (and no up-close-and-personal shots of pussy being penetrated). If the demand for these types of movies increase, they could easily become the new R-Rated movies. The quality of the scripts are about the same as old R, the amount of sex is a little higher, and the FX budget is a lot lower. So, if more people buy/see these types of movies, I think the budgets will go up, and the quality will rise like a happy audience member.

So, see some pussy and help the movie industry! You'll be thanking yourself all night long.

The Edward

PS I wasn't sure, but in the end I had to say something, so I will keep it short and to the point: I think there is a common thread through all of my posts.

Once in a lifetime

Have you heard about the 100 year plant? It blossoms once every 100 years. Say you had one of these plants, but you didn't know what it was. 50 years, it just sits there, staring at you, looking like any other non-blossoming plant. Then, one day, it blooms. 50 years, nothing, now this. What would you say? Would you think it would bloom again next year (ie did it take 50 years to mature, now it will bloom every year)? Or some other cycle, or are you in the middle of a 100, or 1,000, or some longer cycle? Maybe too long for any human to have ever seem the first event of this cycle? What would Science say?

That is the problem with Science - it can not say anything. Science is a method - one based on inductive reasoning. So, if something is reproducible or has a long series of occurrences, then you can induct certain things, then you can claim you believe something might happen because of something else, or happen with a certain frequency, etc. But what of things that happen with too long of a cycle for humans to observe? What about things we can not control or reproduce on demand?

Psychic powers. People think science says that they can not exist because we can not recreate them in a lab on demand. Psychics say that they are not really to the "on demand" state yet. So, Science says "Bogus." Can I demonstrate a Big Bang on demand? Can I demonstrate a Supernova on demand? Pulsar? Quantum string?

Science is a method used to determine how likely something is based on past events - not much more than that. There are large groups of things that Science can not speak to. Science is mostly a faith these days. If Science can not prove something, then it probably doesn't exist. Yet Science can not say something about most things in this Universe. Within our limited time-frame, we do not know how stable this universe is, we do not know that water will boil or that protons are stable or ... We just infer based on inductive reasoning, Science. But inductive reasoning doesn't work. We believe in Science as a faith and it has gotten us this far, but will it take us to the next level? No.

The Edward

PS Alien influence. I claim science can say something about this, not based on experimentation, but based on inductive reasoning, which I have explained somewhat in previous blog entries.

God is Just

I hear about all of the violence in the video game industry. I hear about how all of this has lead to the downfall of our civilization. Sure, every generation on record back to the Ancient Greeks has said the same thing about its current generation, but this time it really is true, and we know that Video Games have caused this! Everything from terrorist to school shootings to sex with prostitutes to voting for Bush (or Clinton).

So, I had though of a solution a bit ago, and I thought tonight I would share it with you. A new kind of video game. A game about god. A game that god would approve of. A game that would make our civilization that which god craves. Pick any god in which you believe, and you will see that each of them want the same thing for his/her/its children (ie humans). God wants you to know that he is the only god and all non-believers will fall before you as proof of his divinity, for only the one true god could make this happen. The problem has been that man decided to take the power of god into his own hands, which is source of man's downfall. My solution: God is Just!

God takes back his rightful spot as leader of smiting the unbelievers in this new action packed video game. After the game loads, the game world is filled with unbelievers in need of a good smiting. You pick your god, define the powers that you believe that your god has, and off you go to rid the world of everyone who doubts your god. You can choice the standards such as lightening bolts, locust plagues, rivers of blood, first born dieing, altars for sacrifices, blow out their minds with drug enemas, burned at the stake, orgies, etc. Unleash gods righteous anger, letting you know that god is just. No need to blow yourself up, since god is obviously more powerful than you, let him do what needs to be done, up close and personal. And let this game show you how it would look and sound if your god existed.

I can even see a sequel! God is Love! You play the living believers of your god, and you get to express god's love to your fellow man. Or kill them if they don't believe, because that is how much love god has for everyone. He is the definition of love - a love that burns unbelievers, because who really cares about them, not a loving god, that's for sure. His power will flow through you to burn them and their dark souls that he created for them in the first place.

I see this whole god thing taking off. God could be a big hit. All action packed and actiony in glorious gory detail. Let's not step on god's toes, let's instead give glory to god and his plan to smite the unbelievers by buy my new game when it finally comes out. God willing.

The Edward

Those Without

I had some work done on my house recently, had an AC installed. I realized during this process that the people who are doing the instillation do not benefit from the work that they do. People who install ACs are always in the heat, for once the AC is installed an cooling the house, their job is done and they are off to the next hot house. People who install new breaker boxes or those who help restore power when it goes out, they have to work in the dark or use battery powered devices. People who write software always see the buggy version, since once they are done, it ships to customers and they begin the next version. So, it seemed to me that those who make something are not the same that enjoy the benefits. Everything you enjoy, everything that is done for you or made for you, the people who did that or created that live without the enjoyment of that, because like the swift running stream, they have already moved on.

Who would then be the ultimate maker? Who would be the person that would fit my description of a being who lives his life without anything, therefore probably is the maker of it all? God would not be the man behind the pearly gates in a mansion, but the homeless man.

The Edward

Aliens Among Us

I remember when Alien Nation was on TV. There were a lot of alien shows on around that time, and I also remember most people thinking that Hollywood was softening us up for the actual introduction of real aliens onto our world (rather than Hollywood being bankrupt of ideas and therefore everyone jumping on the tailcoats of that hit movie Alien Nation).

Well, I have something to say: They weren't doing that. The aliens in the TV shows and movies are not aliens, nor could they be alien influenced. The government wasn't working with real aliens to come up with these story lines in order to get us used to the ideas, and the aliens in the shows weren't just like the real ones. Maybe I have or had a weird set of friends and family back then, and maybe you never heard this theory of alien controlled media, but I used to hear it all of the time. It is an intriguing thought, but not what is really going on.

First off, any aliens we meet will be at least a million years ahead of us in technology. 1,000,000 years. Where were humans that long ago? Chimp cousins? And since the advancement of technology and knowledge is not linear but rather exponential, aliens at least a millions year ahead of us wouldn't ever regard us as highly as we regard ants. Have you ever stooped down to an anthill and tried to bring your wonders of Modern Technology to the ants? Have you seen them toiling away and try to tell them that they could use machines to do the work in a small fraction of the time? Or have you just toyed with them using your magnifying glass, or sprayed them with poison if they dared intrude unwantedly into your life? Do you see how we could never communicate with any alien race now?

Secondly, the aliens on any show or any movie that I have seen are not aliens, but disfigured Earthers. Giant worms. Wolves. Humans. All the aliens or alien monsters are based on models of creatures from Earth. They have the same drives as some Earth-based creature. They eat the same food, want the same things, want to have sex with human women, etc. I have not yet seen a movie or a TV show with an alien in it that afterwards I said to myself "Wow, I didn't understand the motivation of that creature at all. It was like totally alien to me. It did things for reasons I couldn't understand. And it didn't try to eat anyone because it came from an alien world with an alien chemistry and therefore could digest a human let alone mate with one." Never.

All of my life, people have jokingly said I was an alien or non-human. If only they knew the truth!

The Edward

Being vs Being

I've realized something while doing these past few posts. Alien beings. Human beings. This being the case. Be-ing and being, is that just a weird trick of English? When we refer to some entity, we use a word that is "be" with an "ing" at the end, which has a different meaning... or does it?

We don't refer to pets or other animals as beings. Yet, I've heard Alien Beings all my life (not in my head, just the term). So, we define a being as some intelligent entity that we feel would be our equals? Does our language tell us that as beings, are are spirits that "are", hence "be"?

Sorry, not going anywhere with this, just taking a mental breather.

The Edward

When going to the beach, try not to get the sand which is there in your sandwiches there.

IQ Tests

I've heard the controversy all of my life. "What do IQ Tests mean?" People who score very low or very high claim that they do not mean anything. Those who score in the middle think it shows how smart they are. I always score 168, so you know what that means...

Well, friends, I will reveal what IQ Tests really are! That's right, I said "Are"! Or at least my guess based on my world belief as to what they represent. They represent socialization.

The tests are pattern matchings. "Which of these things is not like the others." "What is the next number in this sequence." "Which of the millions of words available to humans did you choice to learn." Which patterns do you need to match? Why, those of the people who created the tests of course. I claim that the tests find people who will see the same patterns as the test makers.

As I've stated before, giving a finite sequence, there are an infinite number of next possible items to that sequence. Also, given any set of items, there are a seemingly endless set of differences and similarities. So, out of all of these infinite choices, which one is correct? All of them. But, since IQ Tests have one correct answer, they want you to see the world the same as they do, then they will call you smart.

"But why socialization?" you might ask. Because we are trained in many of the sequences from birth. Sure, we have some in born ones that are common to all humans, but we have cultural ones as well - which is why people from different cultures score differently on IQ Tests from different countries. Here we have Sesame Street telling us one of the things is different from the others, then telling us which one and why. Telling us what is next in a given sequence. The same things happen in school, which is its purpose. The "smarter" we are, the more of the socially correct patterns we learn from these various sources.

So then, what makes someone smarter than someone else, if my belief is correct? The person who can spot the pattern soonest or with the fewest elements of the sequence, and give the same remainder of the pattern or sequence with this limited information. So, if you can tell me what the next number is in this: 1 4 9 16 25 36 after all of those, but someone could tell me the same number 49 after just 1 4 9, we would say that person is smarter. Or as I say, better matched in pattern recognition with the designer of the test.

Aliens would see a different next-in-sequence than a human, since they would have a different internal model of the Universe than we do. How would an alien score on a human North American test? Probably not very well. This would be another way to spot an alien... or alien influence. :)

There is another path, another option. What if you knew that there were endless choices that were all equally correct, how can you possibly "pass" the IQ Test? You would have to have a model of the Test Designer. With this mental model, you feed in the sequence, and out pops the most likely next-in-sequence for which they were looking. So, even though ones internal model of patterns may not be human standard, as long as one can mental encompass that which humans expect to be next, one can appear as human or as smart as one desires. If this being trying to influence humans, that is where it would stand out, since predicting the next-in-sequence is very different from trying to make humans believe a different next-in-sequence...

The Edward

1 0 0 1 2 2

Maybe I can create a set of better examples to illustrate my theory of External Influence. Here goes!

You are driving down a highway. The car ahead of you slows to a stop, so you do as well. Why? The car in front of the car in front of you probably stopped earlier, as the did the car in front of that one, etc. Up to the point of an accident or a flashy light (humans seem to panic-stop or at least slow down to look at flashy lights). Before all of this happened, you were cruising along, your world was that of speed, highway speeds. But, something way up ahead, beyond you ability to see has affected you. How do you know that there is something up ahead? Because of clues from people around you, and they from clues from people around them, up to the point of the person with knowledge. You have determined that there is something wrong without the actual information in your model of the universe. This external information has left a trail that you can follow in the minds of the people ahead of you making it possible to sense a pattern of wrongness without knowing what caused it.

Now for the example: school. If you want to become learned, there are many paths, but let us consider two: taught in school or self-taught. If you decided to teach yourself, you would get some books or try to figure out things from first principles. Without a guide, you would wander aimlessly, learning a variety of things, possibly building towards something or maybe not. At the end of say four years, will have a base of knowledge that would probably be broad, but probably not too deep in any one area (unless you found a reading list that took you through a path of books that guided you to building deep knowledge layer upon layer towards something). If you had found some topic interesting, you might strive for depth, but without a guide, you would spend some of those four years searching for the next bit of knowledge that builds on what you already know but will take you to the next step where you will spend some time searching...

If you had decided on going to school instead, they would have teachers and a curriculum designed to take you from a certain point of knowledge to some destination. At the end of the same four years, you would learn deeply some discipline (ie engineering, philosophy, or architecture) and maybe a little something else. But, you wouldn't find special areas of knowledge, or little tricks, you would follow the path laid out before you, followed by many before you.

Comparing these two ways of learning, that which I consider to be External Influence is better defined by the second way. Human society at any point in time only knows what it has discovered up to that point, but not a destination and a path to get there. The knowledge we would gain as a race would tend to be random-ish, deeper in some areas than others, but never really seem focused over the long term. Without a guide that is all that it can be. But, if there were an External Influence, we would see us moving along a predefined path, one obviously traveled by many before us. We would make fewer mistaken turns on this path and see fewer branches of interesting tricks that do not lead to where the guide is taking us.

I hope this better clarifies the concept of External Influence and why I believe it would be possible to spot such an influence if it existed (as we can spot external information in the car analogy). Do we seem to have a destination in mind as a race when there is no way we should unless some being has told us that is the way to go? Do we seem to know a path to that destination?

-Edward

1 0 0 1 2

More on patterns, or part 2.

Humans favor certain patterns over other patterns when making choices. People will tend to go to the right over left if given a choice, for example. By recognizing Human patterns one can do many things that at first seem impossible.

One can easily win at Roulette with this knowledge. The wheel has a distinctive green space or two. Since a human is throwing the ball, the human will tend to throw about the same speed and tend to synchronize his throws unconsciously with the green spaces. Next time you go to a casino, look at the chart of the last 10 numbers, you will see at least one duplicate. If you ask for a chart of the wheel and you mark down where the ball ends for each dealer, you will see a grouping. Just bet in this grouping and you are guaranteed to walk away a winner.

Here is a party trick I learned a long time ago: Leave the room. Wasn't that fun? Probably more fun than that stupid party - its not like I was invited or anything. Anyway, before leaving the room, pick someone and ask that person to point to some object in the room while you are gone. Do all of this, and when you return, ask that person to point to various objects in the room. The person will point to something red before pointing to the objected pointed to whilst you were gone. (if there is a red object in the room and the person isn't colorblind) Tell them "Stop" at the next object, and they will be amazed that you found the item originally pointed to while you were gone. (There are other signs too, NLP addresses a few of them.)

As an aside to the aliens mentioned in 1 0 0 1: It takes certain equipment to make other equipment. If you took a laptop computer back 100 years, no one there could fix it, even if you took back people who knew how to make a computer. Why? Because the needed machines and the technology to build them didn't exist back then, even though you brought the knowledge with you. So, one can postulate that technology moves together with knowledge - without one, the other is useless and probably wouldn't happen on its own. So, if one looked at the patterns of scientific advances and the rates of technologies, one can see if there are certain patterns to them. Do they show that one exceeded the other? If so, that shows influence external to the system. Look at human advancements as a set of patterns and see what you can see...

The Edward

PS Why do brides get married in white? To match the appliances.

1 0 0 1

Patterns. They are all around us, patterns everywhere... So, if you saw the sequence 1 0 0 1, you might be tempted to say that there is a pattern to these 1s and 0s. You would be wrong. If you believe I am wrong, tell me Mr. Smart Human, what is the next symbol in the sequence?

(Actually, any sequence of numbers has an infinite number of correct next numbers, which is why I do not like them on IQ tests: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, x - x can be any number)

Patterns are my friends. I see patterns everywhere. I used to get high grades on tests in school, not because I learned the material, but because I knew the patterns that determined which questions would probably be asked then studied just that. The same way one can know who did it in any murder mystery, they all follow the same pattern. Questions people will ask, how they will steer their cars before making a turn or taking an off ramp on the highway. All patterns have a beginning, and the earlier in the pattern you can recognize the pattern, the more able you are to take advantage of it (or yell at the guy cutting you off, because you knew he would do it). Spend too much time with patterns, and you will start to see ones that do not exist (or do they?), so be careful.

So, where am I going with this? Aliens. Bet you didn't see that one coming, did you? There are no truly random numbers in most areas of our lives. Things that happen are usually caused by someone. The questions: Are there a Secret Societies controlling our fate? Are aliens behind technology advances? Are they controlling us? The answer to all of these questions is plainly obvious with the knowledge of patterns.

To find the answer to the aforementioned questions, ask yourself: Are the patterns those that are produced by Humans? Do the patterns better match those produced by an organized body kept in secret? Human leave a distinct pattern on all choices as do groups, so if there were patterns to world events that did not follow normal human tendency towards certain patterns...

The Edward

Cream

Well, I was trying to avoid putting the "real" me up here, but I have heard that my blog is less interesting than I am in person. Some people also said that I should document the "real" me because of some reason that eludes me at the moment. I figure since I am back filling with this one anyway, why not give it a try here.

I do not know much about the world in which you live. People talk about different diseases and are horrified, but they are words to me, words I do not understand, so I base my reactions on those around me and gasp with them (when I remember to do this). I do not understand drug use or what any of them do, so when they are used in a movie and people around me gasp at what someone on screen is doing, I sit there puzzled. My world is very different from your world - I've made up the world in which I live since I seem to lack the inborn rules of the people around me.

The actual topic: cream. I was so happy a bit ago because I finally found larger-than-pint-size half and half to use on my cereal at night. I admit, I used to use whole cream, but that is very hard to find out here, so I made the switch about 10 years ago. Then they switched over to pints only for half and half, I guess there isn't much demand for it, besides me. (And a pint is only good for one night's cereal!)

This past week, I found and purchased a half gallon of Manufacturing Cream. As I child, I liked these diet packets called "Alba 77", which I found again recently. You mix one with water and ice, and it makes a milkshake. I used to drink them as a child, so I like the taste. But, I never used water. Now that I have this extra heavy cream, I thought I would use that to make one. Wow, the blender spun a few times, then the cream turned solid. The powder didn't even make it to the bottom on the blender (ie not really mixed). So, I had to dilute it with some half and half, just to get the blades spinning again. And when I was done, I had something so thick I had to use a spatula to get it out of the blender. Basically, 3 cups of heavy chocolate whipped cream. Boy, was that good! Not much of a thirst quencher, but tasty.

The advantage of using higher cream content on cereal is that it doesn't get soggy, since the cream kind of coats the cereal. Yum. Actually, I think I will make of bowl of it right now! I highly recommend drinking (or spooning) some tonight!

The Edward

PS Maybe I will tell you about drinking cups of gravy next time...

Will Kirby

Will Kirby is the greatest player in the history of Big Brother, the TV show. He won in season two, and will probably win this season as well. His main strategy is that he knows he is in a game, which allows him to keep his real self, the one that exists outside of the show, out of the game he is playing. This year he has added an interesting twist to his strategy, he has been asking every week that people vote him out. This strategy has made many fans of the man, many people who want him to stay on the show because he is entertaining. Sure, by the rules of the show, if he wanted to leave, he could just walk out the door at any time, so by claiming he wants to leave, he really doesn't, he just wants people to think that so that they don't view him as a threat - "he will be leaving soon, so we can focus on getting the real threats out now." I think this is how god works.

If there is a god (or gods, but I will use "he" to make typing easier), he is watching our every move. If we are entertaining enough, we get to keep on living. If we start creating a boring show for him, we get voted out of this life. Sure, we all know that we could leave this life anytime that we want, but we do not do it. The people who are successful in life are the ones that can separate themselves from the games of people around him. "All the worlds a stage..."

Based on this, what do I believe is a key to a longer life? Be the Cosmic Joker. Be the one that makes entertaining shows to watch. Don't be a threat to the other players or they may get rid of you before the audience wants you to leave. Have victories, have defeats. Be in the wrong place at the wrong time, or the opposite. Fall in the mud face first, then do something interesting about it. Do interesting things, play an interesting character. But always remember that you are playing a game, and keep your true self to yourself.

The Edward

You are dead to me

You are not who you believe you are. Do you like the same things you did last week? Last year? Five years ago? 10? 20? Who you think you are is only an illusion. You have changed, moved on, left the other person you were for dead. I consider this to part of Death - every time I meet someone that I haven't seen in a bit, they are partially dead to me, since the person I knew is gone in the streams of time. But there is a new person, a person who knew the person I knew, and we have that to talk about. You are that new person, but even you have a different type of Death about you...

I consider Death to be a percentage rather than an on/off switch. And Death is more than just the physical Death or the time based Death from above, it is also a mental process. How much Death have you let into your life? About which things do you say "I'm too old for that."? Since you are not getting younger, once you say that you are too old, you are saying that you will never do that again. Ever. That action is dead to you. Hence, I say, you have left a little Death into your life. The more things you do this for, the closer to 100% dead you become.

Live! Do things! This type of Death is supposed to be a motivator. It is not an end to be feared, but a motivation to do things before the clock runs out. A call to live your life, rather than sit around saying that you are too old for stuff.

That is the funny thing about Death, the more you do the less Death you have in your life, but also the more dead you are to your oldself and people that oldself knew. So, Death is like freedom, the more you use it, the more free you are, but the more free you are, the less you are like you used to be and the less you are like the people you left behind.

So, it is your choice: hold tightly to the life you lead unchangingly and die inside, or become dead to those you know right now to become fully alive!

The Edward
Life, the brief pause between Oblivion and Eternity.

Evil Genius Dream

I start dreaming almost as soon as I close my eyes, and I remember almost all of my dreams in vivid detail. Yet, through all of the thousands of dreams I remember, one has haunted me, so I will share it for the first time. No, not the one where aliens will invade at 6:00 pm, though we can stop them with flying machines made of paper, ones large enough to carry all of the coleslaw and pickles that are needed to break through their force field. This is The Evil Genius Dream that I had 13 years ago.

I was working for the government, but on a top secret project. Not the kind that gets one all of the pussy one can ask for, but the kind that is interesting yet boring. I was to take a shift to watch over The Evil Genius. His exploits were legendary, well, to people in the know that is. The general populace had never heard of his death ray, or is evil dealings with an evil alien race, or his lair of inventions so Genius that no one had figured them out yet (as well as too Evil for people to want to try and figure them out).

Somehow, probably with the help of some scum-sucking backstabbing alien race, he was captured and a device was placed in his head that prevented Evil thoughts. The government who gained control of him thought that with this device in place, they could steal his Genius without all of the bother of those Evil thoughts. The problem was, this device also limited his Genius down to genius, probably even lower. But they were happy that he wasn't out there destroying the world, or worse, working with the alien competition.

So, my first day there, I was to watch him. I could see on the monitor in front of me the Evilness of his thoughts, but I could also see the limits it placed on him. I felt sorry for him. Everyone else hated him, but I realized that I understood his plight, because as I said in the dream "I, as all people, have felt the call of evil. Who I am to judge this person and keep him against his will for the choices he has made? Who is really the evil party in all of this?" In retrospect, they probably should ask people their feelings about this type of thing, to skim off people like I was in the dream from getting jobs like that. But they didn't, and I was in control of the device that kept this man in check.

By this point, you probably know the rest, but I will spell it out, or else this blog will look a lot like I used to write In The Time Before I Understood. I flipped the switches to release this Evil Genius. I'm guessing that they shouldn't have taught me the sequence of switches to flip to release him, since there probably wasn't a valid reason for me to know this. As the dampening field faded, I could feel the Evil and the Genius radiating off of him. I understood all of the power that he possessed and felt angry that the worms who called themselves humans would have the unmitigated gall to try to steal so much from this person. I hoped he would destroy everyone for this crime.

Well, it was only a dream, so even though I use "I" above, that person had different memories than I do, different motivations, different feelings. No, there is no twist that is not really a twist: I wasn't the Evil Genius, I just felt that I understood his plight and wanted to help him, set him free to his own will, not to let someone else cage him.

Then, after all of this, and with the no-twist, way does this dream still bother me so?

The Edward

PS How many feminists does it take to screw in a light bulb? 2. One to screw it in and one to suck my dick.

Searching

I have spent my life searching. Searching for what you might ask. Actually, I used to think that The World cared about questions like that, because I know that I did. I would see people and wonder what they are thinking. I would wonder how they got to where they are. I would ponder if they are doing what they are doing as some sort of act that they hope someone will notice, or are they just doing things for themselves. I used to think everyone else was that way as well, and that other people obsess over every detail of everything that they did because everyone else was watching for subtle signs. And not only that, but people were always looking at others to see the signs for themselves. Then it all came to me - no one notices, because everyone is too caught up in their own world to look too closely at anyone else's. That is one of the many reasons I have created this blog, as the subtitle says, my version of your world.

So, what was I searching for? No one that I've met covered over subtly with overtness. No one spent all of their time practicing small things that can be done that no one would notice unless someone was actively looking for them. Once I realized all of these things, I realized that I was alone. Or, better stated, possibly alone. So, I started a life long search for other's like me. But how to find them?

I searched high and I searched low, I watched the words people used, I watched how fluidly they moved, how quickly they could change topics, tried to guess at their world models by word choices and response to various verbal stimuli, etc. But, I am only human, so I could make a mistake, I could miss some cleverly hidden signal, I could be standing right next to one of the people I sought, but be too in the world to notice them. I had drifted.

So, I did what any rational person would do: I gave up. I realized that my quest was inspired by madness. I was obsessive and paranoid. So, I gave up that madness, and realized that we are all the same. One giant mass of humanity. There are no aliens amongst us. There were no next generations humans lording themselves over us, either overtly or subtly. No one here but us humans. So my search is over, and I have found what I was looking for - it was right under my nose all along.

That's the funny thing about noses, that which we seek always seems to turn up right under there.

The Edward

More with the Light Side being Evil

And another thing, why is Luke so afraid of the Dark Side? Because of its name. I mean, how much time did Luke spend with Old Ben, a few days? And he was able to convince him during that short time that the Dark Side was Evil. What proof did he offer? None. Yet Luke totally believe him. Did he show him both sides and let him judge for himself? No, he didn't. Why...

When Luke meets Yoda, what does Yoda tell him? The Light Side is good for defense, and the Dark Side good for offensive. Seems like a good warrior should be well versed in both. But Light Siders seem to go around telling people that only their path is the True Path, and anyone who even thinks about The Dark Side should be put to death. And you should never ask questions or seek knowledge so you can make an informed decision - the Path of Ignorance.

If they used non-biased words for naming the Sides, I think the audience would have a very different view of the movies - the labels have became the filter for the audiences perceptions. I think if you watch all 6 Episodes knowing that the stories were from the point of view of the Religious Right, I believe you would see them all in a different light.

Keep track of who kills and why. Who offers peace? Who lets people decide for themselves? Who fears knowledge? Who tells Luke it is better to let his friends suffer and die rather than go help them, because leaving would interfere with his class work? Who leaves their best friend with no limbs and on fire on a lava world?

I think the Dark Side is seductive as they say, because it has a feeling of rightness.

The Edward

A Liar and a Murderer

So, as I mentioned before, I watched the end of Star Wars Episode 3 recently. It was an ending that not only made little sense, but was so awful that it ruined movies released 20 years previous (4, 5, and 6). Darth Vader, no longer that Evil, Menacing force to be Feared, but some whiny little love-sick brat, who quite frankly seemed like he was beaten about the head/brain way too often as a child.

With this in mind, I rented Episodes 4, 5, and 6, though only 4 and 5 were available for rent at the time with 6 arriving tomorrow. Then my power went out for a week, but now that it was back this weekend, I watch 4 and 5 in one day. And let me tell you something... George Lied.

I remember reading an interview with him, where he claimed he had the whole story mapped out from day one. He knew who was related to whom. He knew what would happen to whom. This didn't fit my memory of the original movies, and watching them again, I found that I was right and George Lucas is a big, fat liar! Pants on fire. The whole bit.

There is just so much dialog in 4 and 5 that show Luke and Leah are not related and probably have been having a lot of sex, and that Darth Vader wasn't his father. I can see that he might have had an inkling of that idea, but the whole story doesn't bare it out. I mean, he built C-3PO, yet he didn't recognize him. So many people just didn't know each other, yet they met in 1, 2, and/or 3.

Well, I can always find flaws in any movie. The problem I had with 4 and 5 was how evil The Alliance was. When the Empire blew up a planet, was there cheering on the Death Star for the people who died? No, they had a job to do to protect the Empire, and they were doing it. Luke shot missiles down a hatch killing everyone on board Death Star. A station that big probably had families on board, even if not, had to have had a very, very large crew. When he successfully killed them all, there was much cheering on the Alliance side. I never saw a Dark Lord high-five someone after killing someone, but Light Siders seem to do that all of the time. Luke is a mass murderer. And the Light Side is the Evil side.

-Edward